Kesudahan..

Akhirnya aku cube beranikan diri untuk berterus terang dgn dia.. aku pun asik trtanya2 diri ini, btl kah ape yg aku buat ni.. atau ini hya akan menjauhkan lg jurang persahabatan aku dgn dia..?? mmg aku agak berani mati kali ni.. 1st time juga aku serius beranikn diri utk brterus trg dgn lelaki yg aku suka.. aku xmahu digelar egois n menipu perasaan sndiri.. at least i had tried my best rite?? its been a long time i've been through.. tis time i juz want to end it.. im not gonna cry anymore.. n i had no regret on this..

he.. is the best guy i ever known in my life.. one in thousand.. i dunno how to express it.. rare, the one who had everything i ever wanted.. but in real world, we cannot get all we want rite..? we call it fate.. maybe its already written 4 me n i accept it sincerely.. maybe Allah had planned something special 4 me.. i believe in God..

I let him go.. its ok.. i had prepared myself with any answer he will given.. actually im glad knew it early.. and im so happy he had same feelin that i have too.. so im not "syok sndiri lah".. and i feel so happy that he doesn't want me to run away from him n he want i keep closer to him.. being a good fren of him.. he likes me so much.. but we can't be together.. maybe its too late, there is no way turning back.. its fate for us.. maybe.. he had faithful, he tried so hard to keep his responsibility.. i dun want him to betray that girl.. coz i knew how its feel to been betrayed.. its hurt.. a lot.. i know he is a gud guy, really gud guy, he will not broken up girl's heart.. so.. we juz can keep this way, being more closer as a good fren.. maybe tis is the best way that we can do..

God.. i still love him.. if his name was not suit the best for me or he not written to be together wif me.. i let him go.. i'll be happy to see his happiness n see his smile everyday, enough for brighten my day.. may God protect him..

i had changed so much lately.. i tried so hard to improved myself.. i'm getting closer wif the one who had created me, God.. i getting closer wif my family.. i tried 2 moved my weakness.. i'll listened wif all my mum said.. i did so many things before i confess my feelin 2 him.. even the result not like what i want, its ok.. i will always remember what he had told me before, "be urself, ignore all the obstacle n ignore what people will say about u".. i wont hurt my self again.. learned to love myself n i keep moving forward.. i would never give up.. maybe one day, there will be a shine for me, we never know what happen in the future rite.. maybe God will send me someone better, who knows.. :) n i will keep smiling.. everyday~

(sorry for my bad english)